Hey there! Remember me?

1. Yes - I'm awful at this. I keep promising myself to update, and I never do...
2. .... partially because I wonder if anyone ever reads this. If you do, Hi! Sorry!

3. Thursday is my 6 month anniversary. I never know how to approach these sort of things - most of my friends are enrolled in the "anniversary's are an invention of Hallmark" school, and there is a large part of me that agrees with them. When you care about a person, the passage of time should be secondary - enjoying the present should take precedence over the past. At the same time... I am my parents' child. (Literally and figuratively - I'll explain. Sheesh.)
Every anniversary, my Dad makes a point to go out and find my Mom this gorgeous and yet, humorous card... and fills it out with the most beautiful, heart-felt, loving message that I've ever read. Mom, on her part, is often less lovey-dovey oriented than Dad... she's affectionate in her own way. It's hard to explain, but it balances things out - you don't have to be over the top to let people know that you love them. Her cards, however, are the same way - meaningful, amusing, and with a message inside that leaves my Dad no doubt that they've belonged together for the past 25 plus years.
... it's the sort of message... the sort of writing... the makes you wish that, one of these days, you'll have something that amazing for yourself.

... Not just the card! Don't get me wrong - if I just wanted the card, I could write a pretty decent love letter to myself. It's the idea that you could spend the rest of your life with a person and continue to grow more and more in love with them the longer that you're with them. Most relationships grow tired, stale. People forget to appreciate the little things that made them so happy and focus only on the growing annoyances, insecurities... things spiral downwards until everything just explodes. A fireball of love-gone-wrong, if you will.

... so here's my... main malfunction. 6 months. For me - a HUGE deal. My mind has a skewed sense of reasoning and logic, and it takes something bigger than me to recognize when things are worth while. 6 months... compared to 25 years, pretty tiny, but on *my* scale, ridiculous. 6 months of making, enjoying, and working at a relationship with the person that I love. I didn't even believe I was capable of it. (This is growing quasi-emo, I know...) So yes, an anniversary is just another day to spend money, support the economy, and wear your fancy shoes... *however*... it's also a day to remember that, even after 6 months... or 25 years... two people still want to be together.


In other words - maybe I'll find a nice card.
... and then take him somewhere thoroughly un-romantic.
That... just might work.